(This blog is about to become really interesting)
It has been an interesting week of realizations for me;
First: Now I know
why I have been at my corporate job all these years
One
of my friends recently decided to follow her heart and her dream. She is
leaving the comfort zone of a steady corporate paycheck, to the thrill and
excitement of the unknown.
We
had lunch recently and chatted over what her dreams and plans for the future
were. I encouraged her with all the zeal I had, because I know all too well how
very hard it is to leave a comfort zone you have outgrown and start living
again. Kudos to my girl!!!
As
we talked, she said she was relieved that there was someone who understood her,
because many were the naysayers who were telling her to reconsider her
decision, and even as I responded with my story, it became clear to me, in that
moment, what I have been doing in my corporate comfort zone all these years.
It
may well be that I have been here for my friends.
So
many people I came to know and become friends with.
So
many who were unhappy, dissatisfied and frustrated. Desperate to follow a dream
or a better life that called to them.
When
they had doubts I told them they COULD. I encouraged them to make the leap. To
have faith and jump.
And
many of them did.
I
am not going to say that it was all my doing, but there is no doubt that I have
spent many a moment watering the dreams of a dreamers who were just short of
taking that leap. Obviously their ideas and dreams were already there. But if
they voiced them to me, I was always the one who jumped up and said YES…DO
IT!!!
And
so, I don’t feel so bad about my twelve years in Corporate America, which were
only supposed to be three years. For all the friends I have made, for all the
encouragement I was able to give when it was needed, for all the dreams I have
been honored to be allowed to help nurture….
those
twelve years were worth it.
No
more complaints!
Second: Now I get it…I get the I
am that I am
So
I am walking up Amsterdam Avenue to pick up my son from school and I was
practicing “one-ness”.
Of
every person, every animal, every tree – I said audibly “I am that” And
suddenly, right there as I was walking, it hit me. Suddenly, I felt it. It was
a very palpable shift within myself.
The
absolute truth of One-ness. That we and everything around us, are all
interconnected.
Suddenly,
I did not feel “us and them”, I felt I could be in their shoes. I felt love and
understanding.
Difference
and Dissociation felt from me like scales, and I felt open.
And
it felt good.
And
this too governs the Law of Attraction. We, and everything we are and want are interconnected.
We
are one, and one with The One!
Vibrating
at the frequency of that which we desire…makes us that…and brings us that.
Right
there, it was so simple and so clear. I started to cry.
“I
get it” I said looking to the heavens “I finally get it!”
And
now my life truly can change.
I
have been reading self improvement books since I was 16, desperately depressed
and feeling like a loser. My first book was I CAN by Ben Sweetland. It made all
the change in my heart. But since then, I have read hundreds of other books,
have attended trainings, listened to recordings, watched films and videos. I
gave my life to Christ, joined groups, ministries and have been in and out of
therapy for some years now, but I still found myself depressed and lost and
still feeling like a loser.
I
have heard and read about the law of attraction, and have tried to put in
action in my life, but….well first of all…it is ALREADY in action in my
life….bringing to pass all the reality that comes from believing that I am a
loser…and secondly, how I would ‘try’ to work the law of attraction, is that I
would change what I was SAYING, after all there is power in the tongue, BUT, I
did not change what I was FOCUSING on and how I was FEELING. (Wrong Vibrations,
Wrong Frequency) So, need I tell you?...Nothing changed!
No
matter how many times I learned that I am a child of God, that I am in the
image of God, that God is within me and I can do all things.
No
matter how many times I affirmed these. Shouted them out loud. Declared them on
the roof tops. No matter! For still…I FELT….and thus manifested….failure.
But
now…it has clicked, really CLICKED!!! So now, Change MUST come!
Which
brings me to…
Third: It all starts with a
decision
And
it starts with a Decision. A decision on what I want my life to look like. A
decision to practice the law.
So
here’s my first decision – To lose weight.
Since
the last time I mentioned my weight in this blog, I have gained at least 10lbs
more.
This
stops now!
Right
here and now, I DECIDE to lose 12lbs by the end of the year.
That’s
one pound a week…a healthy way to lose and recommended by Weight Watchers.
Now
you may say, that is not something that will really evidence the law of
attraction, because it is just a matter of habits.
Not
True!
We
are talking about a change in the way my mind works.
Remember,
I have been “trying” to lose weight for some time now. I have exercised, I have
dieted, I have journaled and all that
good stuff. Great actions to take, but if you are not succeeding in your
mind….you cannot succeed in your body.
My
efforts were doomed from the start…because I was “trying” to lose weight.
In
the famous words of Yoda from Star Wars: “don’t try, DO!”
That’s
the point!
I
never once succeeded in my mind. So ‘failure’ had to follow…that’s the law…I
stopped exercising, I started eating poorly again, I did not journal and I
accepted defeat. “I just can’t!”
If
I make a mind shift and focus NOT on my state right now, but on the state that I
want to be…it will have to happen. I will attract the support that I need,
I will attract the energy, wisdom and knowledge that I need, and my body will
begin to follow my mind and desire to do what it needs to fulfill that image in
my mind.
SO…here
we go! The change starts now!
